16 February 2030 @ 01:48 am
Chapter ZERO  

Hallo! こんにちは!


My name is Fanny - I moderated utaoni@LJ and step_n_go@LJ years back - but now I am just a casual Arashi fan. I was Jun-baited (like most Arashi fans back then) and Hana Yori Dango will always hold a special place in my heart. But my ichiban is Ohno Satoshi - and so far I haven't found any drama better than Maou.

 initially created this DW account back in 2012 when I was going to get hitched - my initial purpose was to make this as a wedding journal but alas, it didn't happen. I still got married though :p 

Anyway, nice to meet you guys! I don't bite, so let's be friends!

27 January 2019 @ 09:18 pm
Thank you. Good luck. See you again.  
Well, ain’t this a shitty beginning of 2019.

Please pardon my language and bare soul since I am still trying to cope with my thoughts and processing them.

I always knew thay someday Arashi will quit the entertainment world. What I didn’t expect was that it was going to happen this soon and this sudden.

Arashi was and still is my strong connection with anything related to Japan. Heck I even applied for that MEXT scholarship 10 years ago partly because I wanted to see Arashi in person - all flesh and blood.

Sure like most fans out there, I swayed here and there. I even fell out of fandom when I was in Japan and went through kpop phase.

But I always come back to these 5 guys. When I felt like my day was a wreck, I turned to their old videos and I would feel better somehow. And although I don’t really fancy their newer albums, I still listen to them. Knowing that they are around the corner of my music playlist makes me smile.

When the announcement came out this morning, I felt numb. Like, “okay... as long as they are happy, I guess that’s fine.”

And then I went through Twitter. Tweets by tweets, and somehow at the middle of them, my tears started to rain. I watched the FC video and I realized how Ohno looked so old, so tired, and so beaten. I read the translations of what the rest of them said and they hit me so hard I went through my day feeling empty.

Then a selfish thought came into my mind. Why did this need to happen? Can’t they just lead a normal life while still be in the group? I don’t even mind if they don’t release an album or have a tour - just not this!

I calmed myself down - talked to some Arashians that I know personally and I know will give me more rational inputs. I took a break from Twitter and did my usual weekend chores.

And then I saw the press conference clips - along with the translations (mad respects to Arashi fansubbers!).

I must admit, watching the press con was a good relief. I was thinking that I would see cries and gloomy faces, but of course this is Arashi that we are talking about. They went through everything as 5, and for sure they would rather going to the end as 5. With smiles and goofy actions all the way.

I felt HUGE gratitude.

That they talked and talked about this - only 5 of them. For months. Tried to find a workaround, another way for them to stay together. And finally decided on something - just between them.

That they kept this for a whole year until they were ready to reveal it to their fans.

I thank Ohno for being strong and selfless for 20 years. He could have quit years ago, but he soldiered through. And I thank the other 4 for choosing this way instead - keeping Arashi together as 5. Cause it’s not gonna work if it’s not the 5 of them. They know it.

After all, it comes back to what makes them happy. What’s the point of doing something that doesn’t spark joy?

If they need to take a break and lead a normal life - so be it. God knows how many times I yell at them virtually to freaking get married, anyway.

If Ohno wants to fish and draw all the time without worrying that he needs to go to work the next day, so be it. Go ahead and get tanned, you crazy fisherman.

Sho will continue to be the newscaster that we all are so proud of. Jun will continue to be involved with concert production and acting in dramas here and there. Nino will probably be composing/acting/gaming. Aiba will still be Aiba and be the happiest when surrounded by animals.

I am actually... glad that they are so brave - and trust us - their fans. That they know they are going to break fans’ hearts but they have to do this to remain as Arashi. And they know their fans will always be there for them when they are ready to be back.

I have a feeling that Ohno will take a long, long break. And if I am being honest, I doubt there will ever be a reunion. But I would love to be proved wrong. I would love to see them again on a stage, performing and for Ohno to be actually happy doing it.

In the meantime, I know I will still be seeing Sho, Jun, Nino, and Aiba around. And somehow that eased my pain - after a long weep. It still hurts. Still so very hurts. But I will gradually accept this.

I wish they are having a blast for the remaining two years. I do hope that good news of them getting hitched will come soon too!

Now please excuse me while I cry myself to sleep - hopefully for the last time for the long run. And applying for FC tomorrow.

Thank you for everything, Arashi.

Have a good summer holiday, Riida. You deserve it.
28 June 2018 @ 05:42 pm
Black Pean - final thoughts  
So Black Pean is one of the two dramas that I have been watching this season — aside of Hana Nochi Hare which I think deserves its own entry.

I can finally pen down my thoughts about it after I watched its final episode today

I liked the first few episodes where the conflicts were still mysteries and the doctors were all making my blood boiled. But gearing to the last few episodes, I think I lost some of my excitements.

Nino is really great in acting that's for sure — but for me, seeing him in this complete devil role is somehow not fitting. Tokai is pretty much one dimensional and doesn't have enough layer in characters. Honestly, although it's not really apple-to-apple, I prefer his role in Yamada Tarou than this. Heck, even his Ryusei no Kizuna's character appealed more to me than Tokai's.

Story development wise — I am pretty much disappointed with the revelation of the patient's history with black pean stuck inside his chest. Sure, it has connections with how Tokai Ichiro got banished from Tojo Uni Hospital, but I don't know, I guess I was expecting a more compelling back story rather than Saeki Saigo leaving black pean there on purpose for the sake of the patient. I think I prefer Saeki-sensei to be evil all the way.

The most satisfying character for me in Black Pean is surprisingly Takashina. He evolved from a doctor who only focused on research to someone who finally realize that practical skill is also equally important for a doctor. Add to that his backstory on SNIPE with his effort to cure a little girl's long time disease. Takashina is the kind of character you hated first but grew fond of him along the story.

I guess I don't need to say this — but I dislike Sena and his character development. His purpose is I think to be Tokai's assistant and to learn from Tokai and finally become a good doctor, but the show didn't really go there and it pissed me off that they only used Sena as an assistant to show how superior Tokai is.

I can ignore other supporting roles — but who would tell me what is Nekota's deal about?! She supported Tokai and that's it? Who knows what are her real intention is?

In short — we may need season 2.

And I do hope if that happened, Tokai's character will be explored more cause we deserve that, Show!

/end of rants
08 February 2015 @ 10:57 pm
OMG *tears of happiness*  
I came across this news and I swear I was so happy. This kind of news come and go, but PLEASE JUST MAKE THIS ONE OFFICIAL.
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20 September 2014 @ 01:24 am
sleepy post  

Nakama Yukie got married! Hurrah! Not that I really follow her career and news, btw. Just that I happened to come across this news :p

"Time Spiral" drama is boring. GACKT's acting is mediocre at best, and I just can't believe the chemistry between him and Kuroki Meisa (btw, how on earth she stays that slim after having a baby? I look like a big fat pau!

I finished "Zero no Shinjitsu" YAY. Although the ending is so anti-climax I just went :OOOO. I mean, the whole 8 episodes were built with some tense and when all the answers were revealed, it went alllll the way down.

I haven't watched Rurouni Kenshin : Kyoto Inferno. Sobs. But what to do, I can't leave my baby at home on weekend while I am already away from him on weekdays. Ah well, I'll just wait for a download.

"HERO 2014" is.... welllll, watchable for me. And I kinda like the direction of Keiko-KimuTaku's relationship going. It's playful but definitely not a romantic one, kinda like brother and sister.

"ITAKISS LOVE IN OKINAWA" rocks yo!!!! I have been waiting for it since last year. Not so many kisses (teehee) but the bed scene was whooooooo. I mean, Miki Honoka is only 17 years old!!

Okay, non-drama news aka the story of my boring life.

I submitted my resignation two weeks ago. Found another job with this company with HQ in France. No, I am not moving there. They just open their new office in Singapore, and I am going to be th 7th person (2nd engineer) here. Wow, talk about manpower...

The best part? TRAINING IN JAPAN. I am leaving next month for about 4-5 days. Ok, I am not as excited as before cause well, I am already dreading leaving my baby at home for 8 hours every day, now I need to leave him at home for days? I almost cried T__T

But we'll see. I have to be strong. After all, I need this job. The pay is quite good and it means I can save more to pay our helper, and of course, for my baby's education fund
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11 August 2014 @ 11:29 am
Here's my precious  

My boy, my prince, my everything :')
16 February 2014 @ 02:35 am
chapter zero  

Hallo! こんにちは!

I am not even sure if I still have some new friends lurking around LJ, but はじめまして~

My name is Fanny - I moderated [ profile] utaoni and [ profile] step_n_go years back - but now I am just a casual Arashi fan. I was Jun-baited (like most Arashi fans back then) and Hana Yori Dango will always hold a special place in my heart. But my ichiban is Ohno Satoshi - and so far I haven't found any drama better than Maou.

Anyway, nice to meet you guys! I don't bite, so let's be friends!

Current Mood: accomplished
16 October 2013 @ 09:58 pm
And it's a...  


Alhamdulillah, so excited! He's healthy so far and kicking a lot. And I mean, A LOT. Especially during meal times :p

Be healthy, my baby. I'll see you in 4 months . Love you so much (^з^)-☆

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18 November 2011 @ 02:22 am
BLUE open concert - a dream of a fangirl  
Here goes the background story for anyone's interested.

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Jump to this little concert review~ )
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18 August 2011 @ 08:24 pm
Protect The Boss (aka. super fine Jaejoong)  


Toothache, too sweet to handle )
15 August 2011 @ 01:11 pm
Stolen from [ profile] superslurpee's post here


I should stop posting nonsense things lol
14 March 2011 @ 12:19 pm
After the quake  
I am safe and sound, alhamdulillah. Still a bit shaken cause there are still little shakes here and there, making me a bit paranoid now. There's still a prediction of aftershocks of 7 SR in few days though, and with the issue of Fukushima's reactor plan.. *speechless*

Anyway.. please pray for us in Japan here, especially them at Fukushima. I will be keep in touch via Twitter :)

PS.. Oh for anyone interested to keep updated with Japan's recent situation (I suggest to not really believe international news cause I found some of them were really exaggerating), here's a link :
20 February 2011 @ 02:20 am
Everybody clap clap clap!  
Dils tortured asked me to write this post lol. And yeah, I think it's also about time~

Beware with the long post though xD.

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I know that this is the official fanclub of CNBLUE. But I prefer not to be associated with certain name, so I just want to say that I am a fan of CNBLUE, and will try my best to support the boys :)

PS: There Dils. I did my homework already lol xD
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